365 Poems for 2021 #7

As the title suggests this us the 7th Poem I have written in 2021. Lagging behind a bit in my possibly ambitious aim tk write 365 Poems in a year.

This entry has a very specific source. My Insomnia. And in common with Poem #4 there is inspiration from a favourite song. I think most will be able to guess the song.

I didn’t identify all sources in Poem #4 as working out the hints was part of the point of that Poem. Similar here. I will explain my workings in both Poems in a later Article. Continue reading

Measuring Time. 2019 giving way to 2020 (MH Triggers – NYE Resolutions, Change)

At this time, when one year us ending and another beginning people often look back at time passed and forward at tiusing the nearest weather station to meme yet to come.

Some people set out realistic aims.

Fot some though this can lead to people making themselves promises they may never keep. Sometimes simply setting the bar too high can cause stress.

And more so this year. People are celebrating the end of a Decade and thr start of another. In some ways it seems people are overloading on making decisions about their future.

But all this needs to be put in perspective. It can be very healthy for people to see a tome that can be used to reset their lives for one reason or another.

But is the best time?

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I have all the right moods; not necessarily in the right order. I’ll give you that.

I used the first sentence in the title of this article earlier today on Twitter.

It is using a phrasing pattern that many in the UK will recognise. It’s channeling the comedian Eric Morecambe from a famous Morecambe & Wise sketch.

It was a comment on a Tweet from the author Matt Haig. He had greeted that ‘Blue Monday’ wasn’t a real thing as Depression as a whole doesn’t follow a Calendar. Obviously he doesn’t mean that dates can’t contribute to Depression, there are obvious incidences where this would be true: anniversaries of certain life events for example.

Blue Monday is supposedly the date more people are loudly to feel Depression. It gains more publicity year on year it seems.

Matt, and many others agree, was making the point that the day itself is not a real thing from a depression point if view. One reply compared it to Valentine’s Day. To think that telling ones partner you live them on 14th February means anything more than on any other day is simply quite silly.

And my point was following on the idea that he Monday is used for awareness rather than being a ‘real thing’ by highlighting that Depression doesn’t mean I am just “sad”. Continue reading

They Have Mental Health Issues? – But They Look Happy! (Triggers: people making assumptions, diagnosis)

I have been diagnosed today with mild Psychosis. GP isn’t sure yet if it is a side effect of medication or not.

I have been on the current medication before. I haven’t had Psychosis as a side effect before. I have had a few Psychotic experiences when not on medication.

So we are giving ut two weeks to see if it fades. If not we’ll move on to plan how to tackle it.

This article is rather long. If you make it to the end I hope you feel it doesn’t ramble for no reason. I hope you find it structured.

But what am I getting at here and why am I sharing such personal detail? Continue reading

Don’t take your Health for granted (MH Potential Triggers: Crisis, Surgery, Death, Eating Disorders)

On 8th June I made a very personal announcement explaining why I wasn’t writing articles for this Blog. In many ways I am a very private person and I wouldn’t have mentioned my illness at all apart from the fact that I was forced to withdraw from being part of Lawgiver this year, this was the third annual (unofficial) Judge Dredd Convention and I have been involved from year 1.

I was in hospital from 19/05/16 to 11/07/16. I was admitted due to complications of newly diagnosed Diabetes which culminated in a very serious operation.

I am making good recovery but I still tire easily and I will be attending multiple Outpatient Clinics. I also need a further operation.

My physical health is usually quite good. I do live with Mental Health issues and sometimes write about the subject; which is why I put Trigger Warnings in the heading to this article.

It was a minor ailment that took me to my GP’s Surgery. If I hadn’t gone that day the outcome could have been very different.

This is a very personal story and isn’t easy for me to write. But if it makes just one person think a little more about their health and have things checked out it will be worth it. Continue reading

MH – David Bowie – how we remember those that have died (Potential Triggers bereavement

Jareth Sarah.jpgDavid Bowie died on 10th January 2016.

The news broke around 06:30 and was confirmed by his son, Duncan Jones (originally known as Zowie Bowie).

A virtuoso musician of the modern years. David Bowie had a string of hits.

This article isn’t really about David Bowie, more it is about how we remember those that have died. Someone on Twitter asked:

“Is it weird how I remember for being Jareth in as much as his music?”

He didn’t need my reply, but I gave it anyway with a simple ‘Nope’. Because how each life touches ours is individual. Continue reading

MH – Making the Right Choices (possible Triggers: Fluctuating Conditions, Loneliness, Christmas, Suicidal Thoughts)

Anxiety and Depression are fluctuating conditions. Sometimes there may be obvious Triggers that cause bouts of either and at other times there may be no obvious reason.

I have recently experienced extended periods of both issues. The Triggers are not always the main issue of course, that is something that many people mistake.

The point of this article is that when having bouts of Anxiety and Depression many make snap decisions, some life changing. These decisions can be catastrophic and cause more problems. I almost made one such snap decision recently.

This article does focus a lot on me. My Condition, Symptoms and Triggers. Different people have different conditions, Symptoms and Triggers. I mention them in this article simply to be open about the issue. There is no need to have the same ones, no need to compare. The issue of making decisions while in crisis is similar for all regardless of Condition, Symptoms or Triggers.

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Movember and Me

MoBro_ThumbMovember is a charity that raises money for more than just the Prostate Cancer for which it is widely recognised. Since their founding in 2003 Testicular Cancer, Mental Health and physical activity are also within their scope.

Around the country many men have ceased shaving and are seeking sponsors. Some just cease shaving, some will set an aim for growing a certain type of mustache.

I don’t usually publicise my charitable giving but I decided to take a dip in this particular cause. Anyone that knows me will know that I am hirsute. So what am I doing? Continue reading

MH – When Coping Mechanisms can’t Cope (possible Trigger: coping mechanisms not working)

Writing is very important to me.

Not only is it a form in which I find a way to express myself but writing also helps me cope with Stress, Anxiety and Depression. Usually.

At the moment I’m struggling to write. This is due to the fact that levels of Anxiety and Depression I am experiencing are much higher than usual. My reasons may well be very different to the reasons that other people might experience an increase in stress. The reason isn’t the subject of this article – the effects are.

Firstly lets consider Stress. Continue reading

MH – Time To Get Going (possible Trigger: people making assumptions about you)

People make assumptions about other people all the time. That’s a fact of life and it is something that is in fact an important aspect of our lives. By making assumptions and acting upon them we build a picture of ourselves and others. However when doing so many mistakes can be made.

Something I find really quite annoying is when people assume that if I get up late it is due to:

  • Being lazy
  • Staying up late
  • Combination of the two.

I wish that were the case. As with many people with mental health issues  I have difficulty getting going each day. Some days it is very minor, other days I will be either struggling for hours to get going or indolent almost to a state of non-existence.

I am not exaggerating. Anyone who has experienced Depression will be able to understand that feeling of emptyness that sometimes falls. In that state I function only on the most simple terms. I will go to the toilet but I may not eat or drink, drinking is more likely than eating. I will be awake but I won’t move, other than from the bedroom to the bathroom. Continue reading